I spent a lot of the week fighting with myself, telling myself that I needed to just love him but wanting to just be mad at him. Not because he couldn't be baptized, but because the date we had set with his family to be sealed in the temple next September was now impossible. And I watched the heart of Sister Cherry Lou Pamilacan break a little bit. I saw her wonder if her husband was ever really going to just do it. I have gained so much love and respect for that woman this week. No matter how disappointed she may be, she keeps on going and she keeps on supporting her husband. My future husband can thank her for the lessons I am learning on patience from that amazing woman. I love her with all my heart :)
I was still really struggling so on Wednesday, I asked for a blessing from my wonderful district leader and it was perfect. It assured me I had given 100% faith in the Lord and this man and it reminded me of the only thing that had helped me when I first arrived in the Philippines; the atonement. I was reminded that the power of my Savior's atonement could help me overcome the physical trials I was facing, as well as the spiritual trials. And then Heavenly Father reminded me that the reason I was here was to help other people understand this as well. Later in my personal study, I read Alma 7:11-12. And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.
And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities. His atonement can help Sister Pamilacan to overcome the disappointment she was facing. And His incredible atonement is going to help Brother Pamilacan overcome the temptations he is going to face and to overcome the mistakes he has made. Because of the atonement, hope isn't lost. Because the Savior knows exactly what we are facing, we can turn to Him and He strengthen us beyond our own. As we went about our lessons that day, I was able to share this scripture with everyone we taught. I know the atonement is real. And Brother Makulit is gonna know it too.
The blessing I was given also included the promise that we would see "unexpected blessings" in the work. I'd say that was fulfilled. Sister Burt and I had people coming up to us and asking us if we could come teach their friends. We also had the chance to go on exchanges in Sta Maria where our amazing sisters taught us how to find part-member families and we've been applying that in our work as well. We also lived through Typhoon Mario, escaped a 9 year old shanker, and were saved from the crazy, fat, black lady. But there's no time to explain.
Love you all! Thanks for all the support and love and prayers. Keep being awesome and remember who you are.
XOXO, Sister Brown